i piss myself off

it really hurts.

why do i feel so lousy. i never felt lousier.
i just want to spend the rest of mydays sleeping D:
i dunno.

i'm sad that after 4years i'm still noob in bmt. i sad that i didn't have something i cherished.
i'm sad that i'm so insecure. i'm sad that i have no true friend.
i'm sad i'm such a loser,

i'm sad sad sad.

í'm sad that i care so much about what other people think of me.'

sometimes i think i really live for others too much.
be so nice for what? they dun even appreciate it.

ohwells i'm noisy and pretentious/; and i want to change for myself.
i want to be who i wanna be. so scoot. i'm really sick of all these.

OUT OUT OUT.

sometimes i just need time on my own to think.

D;