out

so out, i wonder where i belong

short post no more

i've been blogging real short lately, since i realized i really have nothing much to tell you.
some things are really meant to be kept inside away from everyone

anws amid my mums really irritating shouting ( to anyone: bro, maid)
i did some work today! congratulate me please.

I MEAN IT'S LIKE: OMGosh! GAYLE FINALLY DID SOMETHING THAT REQUIRES THINKING~~
who cares that i spent like 4hrs doing 20 maths questions from revision one nonetheless.
it's still progress right.

please lord help me be real productive~~

friday was a weird day, cause friday i realised i was all alone.
i dunno. I AM REAL POSSESSIVE. so stay away from me please.

somehow the whole situation just reminded me that i have to trust God no matter what i do cause i LIVE for God. AND IT IS NOT BY WILL BUT BY FAITH!

have faith people myes will be a blast!

thank god for everything.

anws no matter how like i'm so not close to the ppl gg to australia, i am going to have fun! YAYYAY. movie marathon on the planeeeee.

tatas. i am going to complete that 36 questions NOW.

SUSAN BOYLE

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RxPZh4AnWyk

she makes me feel better :D

all those sterotypes all those discrimination all those times and rejection i slap them back in your faces.

cause god has a plan for me and i'm going to work it :D

susan boyle all the way.. dreams do come true.

:D:D

cause this is just one side of me. i'm going to learn how to share.

unspoken uzap

some words are not meant to be said.
some things are meant to be happy but are not.
some people (me) are just so selfish and sucky that D:
i really hate this selfish me.

i want to magnanimous and hardworking.
byebye. mugger time.

i piss myself off

it really hurts.

why do i feel so lousy. i never felt lousier.
i just want to spend the rest of mydays sleeping D:
i dunno.

i'm sad that after 4years i'm still noob in bmt. i sad that i didn't have something i cherished.
i'm sad that i'm so insecure. i'm sad that i have no true friend.
i'm sad i'm such a loser,

i'm sad sad sad.

í'm sad that i care so much about what other people think of me.'

sometimes i think i really live for others too much.
be so nice for what? they dun even appreciate it.

ohwells i'm noisy and pretentious/; and i want to change for myself.
i want to be who i wanna be. so scoot. i'm really sick of all these.

OUT OUT OUT.

sometimes i just need time on my own to think.

D;

today is mugger day

OKAY.

i promise God that i will get down to work after blogging and watching fin wang zi bain qing wa.

i'm not going to blog emo today cause emo is gross and dangou makes me happy :D

HAHA! it's super funny i bet i can watch WZBQW like a hundred times and still laugh at it!

anws today i was such a slacker i feel like keeling myself.

how to pass math like that?

anws i just want to be like ye tian yu.
carefree and happy.

i want to have a wangzi like dangou to save me from this terrible life.

i want to be like ye tian yu!!

:D

she's meee idol.

ftw

boo you

i feel really terrible now, and all so weird and D:

I HATE THIS KIND OF SHIT. and i just want to watch wang zi bian qing wa.
D:

study candy

i need study candy to boost my studying
myeeeee all the way!

hates having to talk to emo people cause i dunno how to cheer them up!
god please bless them with happiness!

MUGGGG FTW!

stuffled.

i am such a horrible christian.
i don't know what's wrong with me.

GOD please help me.

i love you and subway.

time and again

terribly sorry xinmun.

i know that talking during lessons is really irritating. from monday onwards i won't talk in class anymore. sorry D:

eh. today i realised i missed going out with kathy :D

i just wanna keel u

YESH YESH YESH! i'm going to australia! TYVMMM!
can't wait can't wait! sleep overrr.

hahhas anws today is good old blogging day.
joycelin wong din come today. BOO.
whywhywhy??

zzz bio was lame. í bet yancheng hates my guts.
boo sorry larhhh. whats wrong with a multi purpose tree?? HUH??
BLEH.

junwei was just being weird lols.

and xinmun was stone.

i was a muggerrr.not.

played vb during pe and won 4d!! YESH! YESH! YESH!
happy shit. wipe that gross smirk of her face
okay thats really mean.

i think she's a good sports woman.
now thats lying.
but ohwells a white lie can't hurt that much.

hmmm. chinese was compo. i hate compos.
BOO.

ehhhh. langarts was gender and language. LOLS.
i am a noob need to pay more attention in class.

phy sucked.

and chem sucked.

chi remedia sucked.

BUT PLAYING PAPER BALL W JAN ROCKS.
LOADDDS.

:D

stuffed and full

sick D: terribly sick. my throat hurts and i have muscle aches all over.
hates being sick.

anws i need to improve my discipline and just be more kinder.
and stop bitching. i don't love to bitch it makes me feel mean.
but i just keep bitching cause i have many evil thoughts.

and i hate my sit. i keep getting irritated at xinmun.
i don't want to get irritated and any one.
sorry annise. i promise never to talk to anyone about u.
i am going to be kind kind kind.

YAY.

love gayle

well i'm happy this way

i seriously can't be bothered to make things complicated, and think my brain away
it's such a waste of precious resources. MY BRAIN IS PRICELESS OKKK.
:D

seriously don't care what you think about me.
i only care what God, family, joycelin, shereen, xinmun, hoching? think about me.
zomg. i actually have that little friends.

but the sad thing is. joycelin and xinmun find me irritating. wait hoching and shereen(?) too bah/; so that settles i am irritating. screwww ya.

can't be bothered changing anymore i just this way take it or leave it.

but i'm happy this way:
happy waking up at 640 everyday
happy scrumping my hair into a messy pony tail and scooting of to school at 7.
happy walking to my bustop myself, singing and praying all the way
happy waiting for the bus and watching cars pass me by.
happy arriving in school without being late.
happy entering the class room and act merry.(irritating)
happy going for morning assembly and dodging llm sucessfully
happy when morning assembly is over and we can go back to the airconditioned class room
happy when the first period of lesson i over.
happy looking at xinmun watch awaiting the end of lessons.
happy chatting with junwei about anything under the sun
happy when recess arrives and i can sleep and chiong hw
happy when i eat something
happy when i actually have money
happy when joycelin and xinmun waits for me
happy when we talk
happy when they stand my irritatingness
happy they are my friends ( i hope)
happy when i win junwei in connect 4
happy when sweeheng and i play like friends.
happy that sweeheng is my friend.
happy that í can't be bothered with the rest of the class.
happy when lessons end and we can go home
happy happy going home and sleep
happy when i sleep.

and it happiness allover again.

:D

love is cheap clothes

yay! today i went shopping a flea titan with joycelin.
thank God we didn't take anymore pictures cause i looked like shit.
oh wells.

the clothes there were really cheap cheap chip! :D
going gaga. there were loads of pretty clothes but i only bought those really cheap cheap ones.
LOLS. i am super budget. GUESS HOW MUCH I SPENT!

awww. i just realised i owe joycelin 2.5o.
POO tomorrow i will pay her back.

i need to lose weight asap. been eating like there's no tomorrow.
cries.

OH WELLS.

i saw the chio chio blogger and her mum! HAHAS
happyyy.

:D

goodfriPARTAYEE.

awww. i wish i was prettier, sexier, and i dunno smarter(?)
hahas all those wishes make me so shallow.

i just wish i had more confidence in myself.
self esteem problem that's what i have.

I AM UGLY.

D;

the party was okay
nobody accepted christ cause awww,
i dunno...we didn't have enough faith BAH.


HAIZ. i need more faith.

I'm GOING SHOPPING FOR STOCKING CUM LEGGINGS TOMORROW WITH JOYCELIN WONG! hearts all over the moon tonight!

can't wait!

pula kuku

CHEM TEST IS OVER.

and there won't be tests next week. and the next.
but then again there's mid years 3 weeks later.

boo.

i need to get down to writing that stupid compo on ausie if i ever want to go ausie.
so this will be a short post!

ýesterday i was irritating but i had fun.

school was short. no homework and loads and loads of pictures.
at least that's what it felt like.

the funny thing is that i do not find shirlynn irritating anymore.
it's just maybe she finds me irritating. so there! i've got to stop being so irritating.
BOOOYA.

and xinmun and i are OKAY! woots!
atleast outside the classroom. have got to stop moving around too much :D
anwanws.

junwei is a emo boy! stop emoing junwei! things will get better :D:D may my many smilieees infect you with the smilicious diesease!!

:D:D:D:D

tingxiang is a wackky person and if i'm ever in 4a, i will be her bff!!
LOLOL.

okay last but not least,

joyjoy wong.

we have got to go out soon!!

check out this space

i really want to go Australia!

spend my time shopping! watching movies and enjoying the cool breeze.
just hate singapore to the max.

okay not to the max. i just dislike the stress and competitiveness.
which is like singapore in 2 words.boo.

today i realised i'm super cheena D;
i like talking in chinese, what's wrong with conversing in chinese.
i'm a chinese, my mother tongue's chinese so what's wrong D:
hacks.

church today. stone. don't really feel bonded to them, but ohwells i have joline
and i love her! <3

gogogo. i need to study and put in effort for GOD. bye!

judgemental eyes

i cannot use judgemental eyes to look at a person
i cannot think i more than someone.
i cannot look down and pity.

i must be more trustworthy and stop bitching, credit one for their proness never discredit but encourage.

reflect God in every possible way cause God loves me.

please lord help me gain favour

looking at the state i'm in now, and then looking back at year 3,
i miss year 3.


it's so hard being a perfect friend. a perfect friend means always accommodating, always listening, always giving in.

actually no i don't know what is perfect.
and i don't know how to be perfect,

all i know is that i'm an annoying friend. gosh i should seriously mature, JOKING LAH JOKING :D

physics test tomorrow, i'm going to burn midnight oil. wish me luck.

"come to me all those weary and burdened and i will give you rest"

I LOVE GOD. he's all i have left.