u lucky 3. not

hahas believe it or not..

anws i was thinking about blogging today and i realised only 3 people excluding me actually know about this stupid blog. and i'm glad it's you'/those/i dunno 3 people cause at least i still can ease my grievance here. haha.

life seriously sucks, i have like loads of pimples pooping up and my frindge is screwed. SCREWED. BAD. i just can't wait for it to grow back.
pleaseplease lord let my hair grow as fast as bean spouts grow from radicles or whatever shit.

holidays are coming in approx 4 weeks..oops for days. HAHAHA.
bet you got shock there for a bit.

and i can't can't can't wait. no more having to put up with pms teachers and waking up early! yesh thats' definitely the best part ever. i'm really sick of waking up so early each morning...

speaking of which let me ask you a question:
would you rather have to wake up at 4 every morning and live till 100 or die at 44?

hmm i dunno know lerh. i really wanna sleep in. but i dun wan to curse myself to die early so i shan't answer this question! HAH. smart right.

i shan't let any stupid prac test or lousy gpa or loads of homework or screwed pimples or undone eom or whatever shit affect me. cause GOD LOVES ME. and i need to do my eom.

today i realised i'm such a fako. i really really hate socialising cause it just shows what a big loser i am. Gah. loser gayle. gayser.losle.

D; emo eom. i hate my life.

dance dance dance

cause she lived to dance.

4 years

i've just watched finish mvp qin ren
andandand

i really really envy the team bondedness! i've long forgotten the joy in fighting as a team and celebrating as a team awww.

i want tio people play basket ball!!

DIXUNNN LIMM.

okayy i'm being stupid/;

didn't train today, just went to take attendence.
cause i'm a irritating women who sucks.
speaking of which YOU have no right to look at me like that, for u do that to. so just leave me alone.

anws. end of the day was sian. just realised no passion and no determination equals to really bad bad attitude. I HATE MYSELF. i wish i had as much determination as tian xiao xi!

BBALL! :D

ehh i really really hate myself. from now on i'll stop smilling so much and stop being so weird and open with people. i'm going to be an anti social freako/;

just watch me.

cause i really really hate myself

hello

first i would like to thank God for my results.
i would have done much worst if not for your divine hand.

i pray that u continue to bless me for my english and chinese and SCS paper results.


okay so today was just another sucky freaking monday.
i hate monday's and i esp hate waking up in the morning.
i can't wait for the holidays.... my only motivation to keep going to school.
D:

hmm anws i forgot what i wanted to blog about but i do knoe that my cid is screwed and i need to get down to doing my eom or else my cid will GG. D:

i need to work harder.

OKAY. i decided to numb away all those stupid thoughts that do not mean a thing cause they are words from the devil's mouth, attempting to KILL ME. BWAHAHHAHHAS.

thus i cannot stray away from God just because of these cheap words, that i do not cherish.
cause i know that God loves me w/o expectations.

i can be the dumbmest girl around, but God still loves me.

:D

okay training tomorrow... D:D:D:

and cathy's going to some ulu place tomorrow.. SSSSS.

to do list

1. bless 10 people.
2.watch 17 again with joycelyn and cathyy BONG. :D
3.watch mvp qin ren
4.watch metor garden
5.watch wang zi bian qin wa and memorise motivational quotes to spam with KAT ONG.
6. spam story books and make library card
7. find someone to rent movies and watch with
8. save money
9. buy 17 mag
10. shoppinggg!!@@
11. neo prints with kathy!
12.study plan
13. EOMM!!!

okay thats about all for now. unlucky 13. HAHAS

wasting my life away

awww i hate my life.

anws i really need to stone a moment. i forgot what i wanted to blog about.

okay.

1.MVP valentine totally rocks! :D
some times i really find alot of encouragement in them.
even though i know i should be depending on God instead.

2. my RC is 80000k plus alr!
yayyys i wanna earn more money to redecorate my ugly restaurant.

3. i haven't done my eom.
emo.

4. ximmun's house tomorrow though i have no idea what exactly we are doing to morrow.
badminton and bridge i guess. HAHAS.

5. life will never go back to before, we've changed way too much.

6. i need to get down to serious studying.

7. LALALALAS. happy birthday grace tong!

HAHAS.

okayyy tt's all i dun really feel like blogging larh

get this emo bug off me!

everyone's emo. seriously/;
and i can't do anything cause i'm emo as well.

no profound blog post for you today so stop generating brain juices.

i just can't wait for my mense to end and my parents to get over the fact that i did freaking terribly for my mid years. i'm going to start on my study plan today...

ohya. ausie's officially CANCELLED.

tootoo.

post examinations

this sucks.

post examinations celebrations have kicked in and all i can phantom is how terribly i did for my many and one subjects. all these thinking has made me really emo. damn.

hmm maybe it's just pms. yeap i menstruating.
GROSS.

anws after the math paper which i totally gave up on, we headed to xinmun's house to watch rented dvds and eat microwave pizzas. can't say it was really budjet but the movies rocked and xinmun's house had alot of yummy food :D too bad joycelin had to leave early D:

after watching the movies we slacked awhile and went to play bmt downstairs. XM condo has like gazillion facillities. cool or what?! left her house around 7.30 hahs. and reached home at 915. D: i took like 1hr and 45 mins to reach hm, all thanks to that stupid bus 75 D; stupid bus.


today went to dixun's house after school. mense came so i was feeling really like crappy and tired. so i didn't watch the eye. BOO. but i guess it wasn't a wasted trip cause dixun lent me MVP QINREN and and and metor garden. spamxxx jerry yan and wang shao wei! :D

yeaps so now i'm watching mvppp :D and i kinda like irritated cause the stupid rc doesn't want to load and i can't get my daily free ingredient/; irritating or waht. zzz.

anws on a heavier note, my life is screwed cause i really dun fit into any place and and and i really can't be bothered anymore. i really can't be bothered about what people think abt me. call me insensitive and mean but I DON'T CARE. now i only care about how i'll do for math and how i can improve it. screw my life.

i still have god and mvp qin ren andand and my family.

jiayou gayle today marks theday of byebye celebrations and hardcore mugging. u need to practise ur math and make daddy proud. i love mah daddy to bits.

:D thank you god for my life and i pray u help me be a blessing to the people around me and just help me reflect you in eveything that i do and if u are not pleased with me being so uninvolved in people's like please guide me and use me. i pray for mountain shaking faith and i pray u help me gain favour with the people around me. :D

in jesus name i pray
amen.

gayle

MATH SUXKS KZZ.

new spectacles.

spamzz neoprints please.

bio gg

BYEBYE forever. looks like i'm stuck in rv.

anws today's bio paper was a killerrrr.

i am officially dead now. brain dead from too much studying.
i really don't want to papers back!! D;

rip. 080508

okay i know i was being pmssy today so i psaied the rest of 4c and went with my junior to act stupid. i guess i really needed to escape bio for while.

went home and suddenly had an urge to go out :D

when out to buy motherday pressie. and i had fun even if u did not.
it was a nice feeling actually cause we hardly bitched i think.
and we jsut stoned. lols actually we got talk larh but aiya.
u know what i mean right.

HAHAS. anws thanks for today. u made me realise why i use to adore u so much last time.
even as we go through this weird stage i still admire u cause ur always true to people.

anws if ur reading this thanks for today i really needed it.
if u ever need me i'll be there and sorry again.. for everything.

:D

a taste of my own medicine

i know i totally shouldn't have slacked yest. and i did/;

so yeap basically my life is screwed say bye to acs u noobo.

anws i've studied most of geog alr left the andes mountain shits

GOD please please help me!
i ask for your forgiveness for disobeying you yest and i pray pray that u'll help me do well for the rest of the test. please lord please help me.

anws i definitely do not want to GG geog ss math and physics so i better studyharder
pray that i can get full marks for that math paper 2. hard core mugging alr. i've learnt my stupid lesson.

please lord help me :D

you belong with me!

ASS, HOLE

i thought i saw you today, my heart almost popped out.

whether it was out of excitment or fear- i dunno.

go away please go back into the past in to my memories and dun ever come back.
you make me hate what i've become.
you make me wan u D:

EEEE.

hahhas. phyy ftww`XDXDXD(xinmun!!) hahas

sorta dun like going on msn cause it reminds me how much i haven't studied and all the nightmares come back again! i wanna go IB! D;

confusedd. okk gotta mugg.

life is a road, now or never.

spent my entire study break spamming restaurant city,
have no idea why i'm addicted to it it's not fun at all.

the whole week sort of set me pondering over what i want out of life.
it feels like my entire life depends on this stupid myee.

if you ask me what i derived out of the 4days of pondering,
i'll tell you life's confusing, and i want to have a time machine.

i wanna go back intime back in to my mamas womb and just reset every part of me.
hahas imagine our mamas womb as the control centre where u can adjust our genes iq eq blah with just a click on the mousie. ohwells.
i wish wish so many things that i know cannot happen. and it's all his fault.

why must he go get face book and let me think about all the fun things i missed out by coming into rv??
whywhywhy. why must you come back into my life. haiz. S;
i really really really hate u for making me confused all over again/;
yearning for things that will never come true or be mind'

so now the question remains should i try to transfer to acs??
cause i want to fit into the sterotype of that school
and not be some cheena girl