HAPPY BIRTHDAY.

happy birthday to you you and you! you know yourselves! HOHOHO.

(joycelyn, hoching, and kathy)

byebye. off to http://chuchu123.livejournal.com

livejournal

LIVEJOURNAL!

NONONO

okay i seriously cannot let my hols slip away like this.
this is so not the holiday i planned for.

it was supposed to be fun, productive and EVERYTHING THAT IT'S NOT NOW.

anws i ran today!! almost died cause i am unfit walked more then i ran actually.
i am going back to school next week to run and do hw.
thats the only way i will ever touch my hw!

daddy's going bangkok soon. i wanna go as well!
then he can go work while i stay in the hotel and sleep! after that i can go shopping bymyself and buy buy buy! HAHAHAHHAS. fat hope larh gaylieee.

anws my brother is freaking irritating!
he keeps banging on the piano and it so does nt help that the antique is place right outside my room. ass.

camp in 2 days time wish me luck!! i want a change in charcter and be less irritatable and love unconditionally and LOVE GOD. and and and shine for God.

list of what i need to get done this hols.

1, complete holiday hw.
2. complete revision
3. go out with old friends.
4. sign up for dance courses.
5. excercise regularly.
6, lose weight.
7. go shopping!!
8. save money
9 have an entire character change
10. HAVE MY PIMPLES DISAPEAR AND FRINGE GROW!

FAT

FAT FAT FAT. D:

don't care tomorrow i must force myself out of bed for training.
prays coach daryl won't come tomorrow.

I AM GOING TO RUN.

anws actually i sort of excited cum not excited bout the camp cause seriously...
I DUNNO ANYONE.D: hope and pray god blesses me with a good time at the camp and allow me to make many many friends!!

:D

yayyy. okay best of all my pimple are clearing!! sorta larhh but still got marks. hope they disapear before camp.

ANDAND. should i buy they kiss again dvd?? 8 dollars only at cash converters.
okayyy. i wanna be discipline and run everyday! LOOSE WEIGHT!!

hiatus

hiatus until my pimples stop popping out.

(looks like you won't be seeing me foreverD:)

I NEED TO GET A LIFE.

it started with a kiss

GO WATCH IT STARTED WITH A KISS AND THEY KISS AGAIN NOW.

was watching it the whole of yesterday! and i finally watched finish at 730am today. :D
needless to say i woke up really really late. like 5pm. D:

iswak and tka rocks
it's super super nice. ( maybe even nicer then wang zi bian qing wa)

joe chen and ariel lin are really really cute together. although it seems almost impossible, but i really really wish they will be together in real life. i want a husband like jiang zhi shu! haha.

don't listen to anybody that says they kiss again is boring. it's not! it's really nice and emotional and touching and NICEE.>D

arghh. i want to watch it over and over again. why must the show end.

going to watch love or bread next week. the ratings aren't good.. but... hope it's nice :D

if it's nice i will pester u to watch it!!

been spaming dramas lately and putting of my work and stuff. gahs.
tomorrow i must start muggingggg. until next week...

have been really out of sorts lately, really dunno where God's leading me to.

don't know what i want in life. what i should do or how to live for God.

my life is in you lord. my strength is in you lord, my hope is in you lord.

i must pray everyday and pray for change and pray a blessing on those people i love.

dear lord please bless,

mummy daddy grace glenn yeye auntie danni and auntie rina,

shereen, hoching, joycelin xinmun, kathy. janice shirlynn wanyi brenda jasmine dixun

joycelyn cathy rachel wendy andand everyone i know.

please lord i pray for change and i pray for love and i pray that i will be able to love unconditionally and just bless the people around me.

:D

u lucky 3. not

hahas believe it or not..

anws i was thinking about blogging today and i realised only 3 people excluding me actually know about this stupid blog. and i'm glad it's you'/those/i dunno 3 people cause at least i still can ease my grievance here. haha.

life seriously sucks, i have like loads of pimples pooping up and my frindge is screwed. SCREWED. BAD. i just can't wait for it to grow back.
pleaseplease lord let my hair grow as fast as bean spouts grow from radicles or whatever shit.

holidays are coming in approx 4 weeks..oops for days. HAHAHA.
bet you got shock there for a bit.

and i can't can't can't wait. no more having to put up with pms teachers and waking up early! yesh thats' definitely the best part ever. i'm really sick of waking up so early each morning...

speaking of which let me ask you a question:
would you rather have to wake up at 4 every morning and live till 100 or die at 44?

hmm i dunno know lerh. i really wanna sleep in. but i dun wan to curse myself to die early so i shan't answer this question! HAH. smart right.

i shan't let any stupid prac test or lousy gpa or loads of homework or screwed pimples or undone eom or whatever shit affect me. cause GOD LOVES ME. and i need to do my eom.

today i realised i'm such a fako. i really really hate socialising cause it just shows what a big loser i am. Gah. loser gayle. gayser.losle.

D; emo eom. i hate my life.

dance dance dance

cause she lived to dance.

4 years

i've just watched finish mvp qin ren
andandand

i really really envy the team bondedness! i've long forgotten the joy in fighting as a team and celebrating as a team awww.

i want tio people play basket ball!!

DIXUNNN LIMM.

okayy i'm being stupid/;

didn't train today, just went to take attendence.
cause i'm a irritating women who sucks.
speaking of which YOU have no right to look at me like that, for u do that to. so just leave me alone.

anws. end of the day was sian. just realised no passion and no determination equals to really bad bad attitude. I HATE MYSELF. i wish i had as much determination as tian xiao xi!

BBALL! :D

ehh i really really hate myself. from now on i'll stop smilling so much and stop being so weird and open with people. i'm going to be an anti social freako/;

just watch me.

cause i really really hate myself

hello

first i would like to thank God for my results.
i would have done much worst if not for your divine hand.

i pray that u continue to bless me for my english and chinese and SCS paper results.


okay so today was just another sucky freaking monday.
i hate monday's and i esp hate waking up in the morning.
i can't wait for the holidays.... my only motivation to keep going to school.
D:

hmm anws i forgot what i wanted to blog about but i do knoe that my cid is screwed and i need to get down to doing my eom or else my cid will GG. D:

i need to work harder.

OKAY. i decided to numb away all those stupid thoughts that do not mean a thing cause they are words from the devil's mouth, attempting to KILL ME. BWAHAHHAHHAS.

thus i cannot stray away from God just because of these cheap words, that i do not cherish.
cause i know that God loves me w/o expectations.

i can be the dumbmest girl around, but God still loves me.

:D

okay training tomorrow... D:D:D:

and cathy's going to some ulu place tomorrow.. SSSSS.

to do list

1. bless 10 people.
2.watch 17 again with joycelyn and cathyy BONG. :D
3.watch mvp qin ren
4.watch metor garden
5.watch wang zi bian qin wa and memorise motivational quotes to spam with KAT ONG.
6. spam story books and make library card
7. find someone to rent movies and watch with
8. save money
9. buy 17 mag
10. shoppinggg!!@@
11. neo prints with kathy!
12.study plan
13. EOMM!!!

okay thats about all for now. unlucky 13. HAHAS

wasting my life away

awww i hate my life.

anws i really need to stone a moment. i forgot what i wanted to blog about.

okay.

1.MVP valentine totally rocks! :D
some times i really find alot of encouragement in them.
even though i know i should be depending on God instead.

2. my RC is 80000k plus alr!
yayyys i wanna earn more money to redecorate my ugly restaurant.

3. i haven't done my eom.
emo.

4. ximmun's house tomorrow though i have no idea what exactly we are doing to morrow.
badminton and bridge i guess. HAHAS.

5. life will never go back to before, we've changed way too much.

6. i need to get down to serious studying.

7. LALALALAS. happy birthday grace tong!

HAHAS.

okayyy tt's all i dun really feel like blogging larh

get this emo bug off me!

everyone's emo. seriously/;
and i can't do anything cause i'm emo as well.

no profound blog post for you today so stop generating brain juices.

i just can't wait for my mense to end and my parents to get over the fact that i did freaking terribly for my mid years. i'm going to start on my study plan today...

ohya. ausie's officially CANCELLED.

tootoo.

post examinations

this sucks.

post examinations celebrations have kicked in and all i can phantom is how terribly i did for my many and one subjects. all these thinking has made me really emo. damn.

hmm maybe it's just pms. yeap i menstruating.
GROSS.

anws after the math paper which i totally gave up on, we headed to xinmun's house to watch rented dvds and eat microwave pizzas. can't say it was really budjet but the movies rocked and xinmun's house had alot of yummy food :D too bad joycelin had to leave early D:

after watching the movies we slacked awhile and went to play bmt downstairs. XM condo has like gazillion facillities. cool or what?! left her house around 7.30 hahs. and reached home at 915. D: i took like 1hr and 45 mins to reach hm, all thanks to that stupid bus 75 D; stupid bus.


today went to dixun's house after school. mense came so i was feeling really like crappy and tired. so i didn't watch the eye. BOO. but i guess it wasn't a wasted trip cause dixun lent me MVP QINREN and and and metor garden. spamxxx jerry yan and wang shao wei! :D

yeaps so now i'm watching mvppp :D and i kinda like irritated cause the stupid rc doesn't want to load and i can't get my daily free ingredient/; irritating or waht. zzz.

anws on a heavier note, my life is screwed cause i really dun fit into any place and and and i really can't be bothered anymore. i really can't be bothered about what people think abt me. call me insensitive and mean but I DON'T CARE. now i only care about how i'll do for math and how i can improve it. screw my life.

i still have god and mvp qin ren andand and my family.

jiayou gayle today marks theday of byebye celebrations and hardcore mugging. u need to practise ur math and make daddy proud. i love mah daddy to bits.

:D thank you god for my life and i pray u help me be a blessing to the people around me and just help me reflect you in eveything that i do and if u are not pleased with me being so uninvolved in people's like please guide me and use me. i pray for mountain shaking faith and i pray u help me gain favour with the people around me. :D

in jesus name i pray
amen.

gayle

MATH SUXKS KZZ.

new spectacles.

spamzz neoprints please.

bio gg

BYEBYE forever. looks like i'm stuck in rv.

anws today's bio paper was a killerrrr.

i am officially dead now. brain dead from too much studying.
i really don't want to papers back!! D;

rip. 080508

okay i know i was being pmssy today so i psaied the rest of 4c and went with my junior to act stupid. i guess i really needed to escape bio for while.

went home and suddenly had an urge to go out :D

when out to buy motherday pressie. and i had fun even if u did not.
it was a nice feeling actually cause we hardly bitched i think.
and we jsut stoned. lols actually we got talk larh but aiya.
u know what i mean right.

HAHAS. anws thanks for today. u made me realise why i use to adore u so much last time.
even as we go through this weird stage i still admire u cause ur always true to people.

anws if ur reading this thanks for today i really needed it.
if u ever need me i'll be there and sorry again.. for everything.

:D

a taste of my own medicine

i know i totally shouldn't have slacked yest. and i did/;

so yeap basically my life is screwed say bye to acs u noobo.

anws i've studied most of geog alr left the andes mountain shits

GOD please please help me!
i ask for your forgiveness for disobeying you yest and i pray pray that u'll help me do well for the rest of the test. please lord please help me.

anws i definitely do not want to GG geog ss math and physics so i better studyharder
pray that i can get full marks for that math paper 2. hard core mugging alr. i've learnt my stupid lesson.

please lord help me :D

you belong with me!

ASS, HOLE

i thought i saw you today, my heart almost popped out.

whether it was out of excitment or fear- i dunno.

go away please go back into the past in to my memories and dun ever come back.
you make me hate what i've become.
you make me wan u D:

EEEE.

hahhas. phyy ftww`XDXDXD(xinmun!!) hahas

sorta dun like going on msn cause it reminds me how much i haven't studied and all the nightmares come back again! i wanna go IB! D;

confusedd. okk gotta mugg.

life is a road, now or never.

spent my entire study break spamming restaurant city,
have no idea why i'm addicted to it it's not fun at all.

the whole week sort of set me pondering over what i want out of life.
it feels like my entire life depends on this stupid myee.

if you ask me what i derived out of the 4days of pondering,
i'll tell you life's confusing, and i want to have a time machine.

i wanna go back intime back in to my mamas womb and just reset every part of me.
hahas imagine our mamas womb as the control centre where u can adjust our genes iq eq blah with just a click on the mousie. ohwells.
i wish wish so many things that i know cannot happen. and it's all his fault.

why must he go get face book and let me think about all the fun things i missed out by coming into rv??
whywhywhy. why must you come back into my life. haiz. S;
i really really really hate u for making me confused all over again/;
yearning for things that will never come true or be mind'

so now the question remains should i try to transfer to acs??
cause i want to fit into the sterotype of that school
and not be some cheena girl

out

so out, i wonder where i belong

short post no more

i've been blogging real short lately, since i realized i really have nothing much to tell you.
some things are really meant to be kept inside away from everyone

anws amid my mums really irritating shouting ( to anyone: bro, maid)
i did some work today! congratulate me please.

I MEAN IT'S LIKE: OMGosh! GAYLE FINALLY DID SOMETHING THAT REQUIRES THINKING~~
who cares that i spent like 4hrs doing 20 maths questions from revision one nonetheless.
it's still progress right.

please lord help me be real productive~~

friday was a weird day, cause friday i realised i was all alone.
i dunno. I AM REAL POSSESSIVE. so stay away from me please.

somehow the whole situation just reminded me that i have to trust God no matter what i do cause i LIVE for God. AND IT IS NOT BY WILL BUT BY FAITH!

have faith people myes will be a blast!

thank god for everything.

anws no matter how like i'm so not close to the ppl gg to australia, i am going to have fun! YAYYAY. movie marathon on the planeeeee.

tatas. i am going to complete that 36 questions NOW.

SUSAN BOYLE

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RxPZh4AnWyk

she makes me feel better :D

all those sterotypes all those discrimination all those times and rejection i slap them back in your faces.

cause god has a plan for me and i'm going to work it :D

susan boyle all the way.. dreams do come true.

:D:D

cause this is just one side of me. i'm going to learn how to share.

unspoken uzap

some words are not meant to be said.
some things are meant to be happy but are not.
some people (me) are just so selfish and sucky that D:
i really hate this selfish me.

i want to magnanimous and hardworking.
byebye. mugger time.

i piss myself off

it really hurts.

why do i feel so lousy. i never felt lousier.
i just want to spend the rest of mydays sleeping D:
i dunno.

i'm sad that after 4years i'm still noob in bmt. i sad that i didn't have something i cherished.
i'm sad that i'm so insecure. i'm sad that i have no true friend.
i'm sad i'm such a loser,

i'm sad sad sad.

í'm sad that i care so much about what other people think of me.'

sometimes i think i really live for others too much.
be so nice for what? they dun even appreciate it.

ohwells i'm noisy and pretentious/; and i want to change for myself.
i want to be who i wanna be. so scoot. i'm really sick of all these.

OUT OUT OUT.

sometimes i just need time on my own to think.

D;

today is mugger day

OKAY.

i promise God that i will get down to work after blogging and watching fin wang zi bain qing wa.

i'm not going to blog emo today cause emo is gross and dangou makes me happy :D

HAHA! it's super funny i bet i can watch WZBQW like a hundred times and still laugh at it!

anws today i was such a slacker i feel like keeling myself.

how to pass math like that?

anws i just want to be like ye tian yu.
carefree and happy.

i want to have a wangzi like dangou to save me from this terrible life.

i want to be like ye tian yu!!

:D

she's meee idol.

ftw

boo you

i feel really terrible now, and all so weird and D:

I HATE THIS KIND OF SHIT. and i just want to watch wang zi bian qing wa.
D:

study candy

i need study candy to boost my studying
myeeeee all the way!

hates having to talk to emo people cause i dunno how to cheer them up!
god please bless them with happiness!

MUGGGG FTW!

stuffled.

i am such a horrible christian.
i don't know what's wrong with me.

GOD please help me.

i love you and subway.

time and again

terribly sorry xinmun.

i know that talking during lessons is really irritating. from monday onwards i won't talk in class anymore. sorry D:

eh. today i realised i missed going out with kathy :D

i just wanna keel u

YESH YESH YESH! i'm going to australia! TYVMMM!
can't wait can't wait! sleep overrr.

hahhas anws today is good old blogging day.
joycelin wong din come today. BOO.
whywhywhy??

zzz bio was lame. í bet yancheng hates my guts.
boo sorry larhhh. whats wrong with a multi purpose tree?? HUH??
BLEH.

junwei was just being weird lols.

and xinmun was stone.

i was a muggerrr.not.

played vb during pe and won 4d!! YESH! YESH! YESH!
happy shit. wipe that gross smirk of her face
okay thats really mean.

i think she's a good sports woman.
now thats lying.
but ohwells a white lie can't hurt that much.

hmmm. chinese was compo. i hate compos.
BOO.

ehhhh. langarts was gender and language. LOLS.
i am a noob need to pay more attention in class.

phy sucked.

and chem sucked.

chi remedia sucked.

BUT PLAYING PAPER BALL W JAN ROCKS.
LOADDDS.

:D

stuffed and full

sick D: terribly sick. my throat hurts and i have muscle aches all over.
hates being sick.

anws i need to improve my discipline and just be more kinder.
and stop bitching. i don't love to bitch it makes me feel mean.
but i just keep bitching cause i have many evil thoughts.

and i hate my sit. i keep getting irritated at xinmun.
i don't want to get irritated and any one.
sorry annise. i promise never to talk to anyone about u.
i am going to be kind kind kind.

YAY.

love gayle

well i'm happy this way

i seriously can't be bothered to make things complicated, and think my brain away
it's such a waste of precious resources. MY BRAIN IS PRICELESS OKKK.
:D

seriously don't care what you think about me.
i only care what God, family, joycelin, shereen, xinmun, hoching? think about me.
zomg. i actually have that little friends.

but the sad thing is. joycelin and xinmun find me irritating. wait hoching and shereen(?) too bah/; so that settles i am irritating. screwww ya.

can't be bothered changing anymore i just this way take it or leave it.

but i'm happy this way:
happy waking up at 640 everyday
happy scrumping my hair into a messy pony tail and scooting of to school at 7.
happy walking to my bustop myself, singing and praying all the way
happy waiting for the bus and watching cars pass me by.
happy arriving in school without being late.
happy entering the class room and act merry.(irritating)
happy going for morning assembly and dodging llm sucessfully
happy when morning assembly is over and we can go back to the airconditioned class room
happy when the first period of lesson i over.
happy looking at xinmun watch awaiting the end of lessons.
happy chatting with junwei about anything under the sun
happy when recess arrives and i can sleep and chiong hw
happy when i eat something
happy when i actually have money
happy when joycelin and xinmun waits for me
happy when we talk
happy when they stand my irritatingness
happy they are my friends ( i hope)
happy when i win junwei in connect 4
happy when sweeheng and i play like friends.
happy that sweeheng is my friend.
happy that í can't be bothered with the rest of the class.
happy when lessons end and we can go home
happy happy going home and sleep
happy when i sleep.

and it happiness allover again.

:D

love is cheap clothes

yay! today i went shopping a flea titan with joycelin.
thank God we didn't take anymore pictures cause i looked like shit.
oh wells.

the clothes there were really cheap cheap chip! :D
going gaga. there were loads of pretty clothes but i only bought those really cheap cheap ones.
LOLS. i am super budget. GUESS HOW MUCH I SPENT!

awww. i just realised i owe joycelin 2.5o.
POO tomorrow i will pay her back.

i need to lose weight asap. been eating like there's no tomorrow.
cries.

OH WELLS.

i saw the chio chio blogger and her mum! HAHAS
happyyy.

:D

goodfriPARTAYEE.

awww. i wish i was prettier, sexier, and i dunno smarter(?)
hahas all those wishes make me so shallow.

i just wish i had more confidence in myself.
self esteem problem that's what i have.

I AM UGLY.

D;

the party was okay
nobody accepted christ cause awww,
i dunno...we didn't have enough faith BAH.


HAIZ. i need more faith.

I'm GOING SHOPPING FOR STOCKING CUM LEGGINGS TOMORROW WITH JOYCELIN WONG! hearts all over the moon tonight!

can't wait!

pula kuku

CHEM TEST IS OVER.

and there won't be tests next week. and the next.
but then again there's mid years 3 weeks later.

boo.

i need to get down to writing that stupid compo on ausie if i ever want to go ausie.
so this will be a short post!

ýesterday i was irritating but i had fun.

school was short. no homework and loads and loads of pictures.
at least that's what it felt like.

the funny thing is that i do not find shirlynn irritating anymore.
it's just maybe she finds me irritating. so there! i've got to stop being so irritating.
BOOOYA.

and xinmun and i are OKAY! woots!
atleast outside the classroom. have got to stop moving around too much :D
anwanws.

junwei is a emo boy! stop emoing junwei! things will get better :D:D may my many smilieees infect you with the smilicious diesease!!

:D:D:D:D

tingxiang is a wackky person and if i'm ever in 4a, i will be her bff!!
LOLOL.

okay last but not least,

joyjoy wong.

we have got to go out soon!!

check out this space

i really want to go Australia!

spend my time shopping! watching movies and enjoying the cool breeze.
just hate singapore to the max.

okay not to the max. i just dislike the stress and competitiveness.
which is like singapore in 2 words.boo.

today i realised i'm super cheena D;
i like talking in chinese, what's wrong with conversing in chinese.
i'm a chinese, my mother tongue's chinese so what's wrong D:
hacks.

church today. stone. don't really feel bonded to them, but ohwells i have joline
and i love her! <3

gogogo. i need to study and put in effort for GOD. bye!

judgemental eyes

i cannot use judgemental eyes to look at a person
i cannot think i more than someone.
i cannot look down and pity.

i must be more trustworthy and stop bitching, credit one for their proness never discredit but encourage.

reflect God in every possible way cause God loves me.

please lord help me gain favour

looking at the state i'm in now, and then looking back at year 3,
i miss year 3.


it's so hard being a perfect friend. a perfect friend means always accommodating, always listening, always giving in.

actually no i don't know what is perfect.
and i don't know how to be perfect,

all i know is that i'm an annoying friend. gosh i should seriously mature, JOKING LAH JOKING :D

physics test tomorrow, i'm going to burn midnight oil. wish me luck.

"come to me all those weary and burdened and i will give you rest"

I LOVE GOD. he's all i have left.

MY HEART HURTS

dear lord please save me from myself.

D:

I AM NOT GOING TO CRY

i cry when i'm sad, when i'm disapointed. when i feel lousy about myself.
but sometimes i dun cause it's just so embarrassing.

crying out loud. crying out my pain/;
i want to cry now.

i feel like such a failure. i totally cannot take disappointment. FAILURE.
i am such a failure. i wanna go school and stone tomorrow.
the english speech was terrible.
and it sucks more cause i wanted it so bad. so bad.

i tot i was only good at THAT.
ohwells guess i tot wrong. somebody give me a hug. i feel so cold.

OHWELLS.

somebody just keel me now. D;

hold dear.

hold dear to what you believe in.